August 3, 2009

Running won't kill you, you'll pass out first!

Running is hard, I've never enjoyed it. Back in middle school, we had to run around a park which was a square city block. Kaytabug may remember more, but I think we had to do 4 laps around it, or what equaled a mile. We had to complete the run within 12 minutes. I believe we did this once a week. Oh holy hell what torture that day was. I remember dreading it so badly. Even as a mere child, no more than 12 years of age, I could barely run that 12 minute mile.

I have been gaining weight for awhile. When I started this here blog in April 2007, I was over my desired weight by at least 15 pounds. I have added close to another 15 to that since. With a wedding some time in my future, with a closet full of clothes that don’t fit and the refusal to buy the next size up, I knew that I needed to do something. Motivation for that something? Meh.

Somehow, somewhere on my interneting, I came across Couch to 5k. An interval training program for running. Which takes you from the couch, being a fat lazy slug, to running a complete 5k. Without stopping to die. At all. Not even a small quick death.

Do not ask what I was thinking.

Truly, the program itself is pretty darned cool. The podcasts I am using play music and Robert Ullrey comes on to tell you when to run or walk. You run every other day, I have been doing Monday, Wednesday and Saturday. After the 3 runs, you move up to the next podcast. A bit tougher each week to get you ready to run a complete 5k without stopping once. Just to die. I just want to stop a few times to die. But it is not allowed.

It is getting tougher each week, although srsly! It has been tough the entire time. Now though, the runs are getting longer. And I am well into the program. Way too far in to quit because my mind does not allow me to quit. Anything. So in order to power through, I have taken up reading some running websites, some blogs, etc. Every website discusses running being an amazing mental endeavor. One quote being that running is 90% mental and the rest is all in your head. Har har har.

But come on, seriously, could I get some assistance? I need some help. How do you get yourself through an exhausting, painful run that you hate with the hatred of a 1,000 hate-filled haters?

Physically the run is painful, but mentally it is so much worse. If you think you will fail at something or that you are not capable of doing something, I can promise you that you are right. It is extremely difficult to keep motivated when you don’t think you can do something. Yet, telling yourself to ignore your stupid, fat, whiny body is super difficult as well. My body keeps telling my mind that I can’t do it. And my mind has a strong tendency to believe my body. Which I cannot allow it to do.

One helpful thing I have found through my quest for help with this running BS, is from one of my standard bloggy reads. Tess says it so well, “I've never finished a workout and said to myself, I wish I hadn't done that”.

Which is so true, I've never regretted running, once I'm done with it. Although I may feel like complete crap during the workout, I've always felt good that I finished the workout, proud of myself for showing up and doing it.

I have made myself a promise, what I am calling a Half Year Resolution. Well 2 actually, but only one that matters for this blog post. I will continue running for the remainder of the year. I will finish this running program and keep at it. Keep running throughout the year. Because I said so.

Any motivation techniques would be greatly appreciated. And check out the Couch to 5K. I really do like the program. When I am not hating it.

P.S. Tess also wrote the bestest post ever on Jon & Kate's breakup...not really about them, more importantly about flicking. Read it. I am consciously avoiding flicking my dear Not Craig. It is like a PSA for relationships.


Jenni said...

I can walk and walk forever, but running is a whole 'nother story. I feel like I'm about to die if I run half a city block. I've got about 15 extra pounds right now, so I've decided I'm going to just make sure I get out and walk every day for now. Good for you for running, though! Maybe I'll try that again someday. Is it better for you? Does it burn more fat? It must, right? Being that it's harder and all. Where do you run? See, that's the other thing. I don't want to run in public. I'm, uh, not that coordinated or graceful.

Kaytabug said...

I couldn't have told you what you wrote about our running regimen in middle school. Having read it, that does sound correct. I loathed running. I still loath running.
I remember how much you loathed running.
The program sounds really awesome, and even though I could stand to loose 30 pounds I will not run. I will,once school starts for the boys, be going to the gym 3 days a week and doing the elliptical.

I give you a high 10 for running and not giving up. I'll be waiting for the post on the 5K! Just don't die,m'kay!

Colby said...

We are in sync these days, lady. Consider me a fellow motivator on the interwebs. I've heard Couch to 5k is awesome. Perhaps after my 90 days of torture, I'll give it a whirl - based of course on your final review.

Sauntering Soul said...

I am so overweight I would probably cause an earthquake to hit Atlanta if I tried to run. But good luck to you! I am in awe of anyone who can force themselves to run. I hate it, hate it, hate it.

Fianna said...

I so suck! 2 weeks later, let's address questions that were asked and that no one will see the answers to, because I took to long to answer...

Jenni, running does burn more fat. It works so many muscles. It is one of the best exercises for an all over workout. I am currently running on the treadmill in the gym. I live in Houston. It is 10:30 at night and 90 degrees outside and 70% humidity. I will have to start running outside in the next few weeks as I am running a 5k outside on 10/3.

All - I am doing this because I can't run. I suck at it. So I am doing it. To prove that I can. And you can too. Not necessarily running, but something you don't like. You can accomplish it. Tell that hated thing to suck it.

Anonymous said...

Running gets a lot better... I started last December with a similar plan... I'm running a lot more than 5k now... Most days it is actually relaxing. I can just let my mind wander and de-stress... It won't happen overnight. If you stick with it long enough that you can run an hour without stopping, I bet you would find the same thing. The 5k in the c25k program is probably 65% of the way there...

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